Confessions from a stranger.

Oh this sounds good. Like a good novel. Like a good secret.  Confessions from a stranger. The weird part is, I am the stranger. Maybe I am the only one who feels like this, or maybe I am the only one who is willing to admit it, or maybe I am mentally ill and misdiagnosed.  Either way, it is an interesting life as a stranger. Its the stranger within the strange woman I am.

Why does a persons mind work overtime in giving us too many thoughts. That is my mind. I even wonder why I wonder.  I worry about why I am worrying. I think about how great it was when times were simpler but then quickly change my thoughts to how really complicated the simpler times must have been.  I watch the television while reading a magazine and playing words with friends. I start my prayer time and quickly get off track and end up wondering if I should put bananas on my grocery list which leads to whether or not I should make banana bread which leads to the fact that if I make it I will eat to much which leads to I need to lose weight which leads to when I can fit more exercise in my day,  which leads to my time scheduling and how I need to make more time for prayer...then BOOM, I am reminded that I am supposed to be praying.

When I am involved in an activity I am thinking that I probably should be doing a more productive activity. Sometimes I avoid doing something I love because I know I will feel guilty about what i really should be spending more time on. I love to decorate but think to deeply about how soon I will want to change it and how it really doesn't matter to anyone but me so why should I waste precious time doing it. I used to decorate over the top for Christmas but now think about how much time it takes and that I will have to put it all away in a month and that I should probably  focus on something more important and meaningful than decorations.  Am I lazy..or crazy???

This all makes me wonder (as usual) is my life too full of "things". Am I so consumed with the things that use up precious time that my mind cannot slow down enough to just be still?  Do my computer, cell phone, television and ipod use up too much mental space? Is my house full of stuff clouding my judgement?  Are my mental lists (and written lists) taking over my brain?  I have so many things that I want to do but can't seem to fit them in. 

Is it just part of the aging process? Is this what happens when we get old?  We are so overwhelmed by all there is to do and all the "stuff"  that we do nothing. We let our homes become something that resembles a museum. It all happens slowly and we don't notice that its happening?  Oh my, now the anxiety kicks in!

This is just a brief view of my deep thoughts. There are so many more that I haven't even touched on but I think you get the idea .Have I scared you all away? Or maybe you can relate. All of this make me think I need to make a change. Maybe God is trying to speak to me but my mind is just to busy to hear.  I shall worry about that now.

Spring...babies...and stuff!

Oh my! Spring has sprung here in little ole Weiser, Idaho. Windy and cold one day and hot and dry the next. I could pretty much be a weather girl. Everyone would like me because my weather forecast would come from the heart and the people would relate to me because I am chubby ;)

I have been balancing time between yard work and creating lovely things in my stu-stu-studio ( oh and my real job, sec/treas/vice pres. of Syme Farms). My studio has now taken up some space in the kitchen, spare bedroom and a little corner of the yard. I am dreading the day when my husband realizes that he is slowly being pushed out of our happy little home. I have a list about 20 miles long of things I want to get done and to make. At the rate I am going.....let's just say that someone will have a great time going through all my "treasures" (aka-crap to some) and cleaning up my messes when I am dead. My children will hate me...but what the heck, I will be dead...what do I care.

Some of my latest works of art...

Mostly my life is filled with enjoying my new little grandson...hopefully someday I will get his name right..Wyatt, Wyatt, Wyatt, and his older siblings...I forget their names :)

Have a happy, blessed evening my blogger friends!! Until we meet again...

Wyatt Alexander Smith has entered the world!

The little guy has finally arrived. Wyatt Alexander Smith was born on 4-22 @ 4:22 am.  He was 9 lbs. and has lots of black hair. He is adorable I must say!  It was an amazing home birth. We were there from early evening to birth.  Being the true rednecks that we all are, we pulled our camp trailer to their house and parked outside...that sounds even stupider as I write it...haha. To our defense, their house is small and there was a lot of family there. More room for naps and the kids loved having it there. But it was kind of funny. We ate tacos, played guitars, annoyed the pregnant lady and had a great family time.

Baby Wyatt ended up being born in the bathtub. I guess in a home birth you never know where you may end up at that moment. I was there for his first cry, got to hear his momma say.."it's a boy" (I had already told her that..duh!) and I got to cut the cord, well I tried. I had the scalpel backwards but I eventually got it right. There were enough of us that someone would have eventually figured out how to cut through that thing. We woke the girls and Ivey (7) said "I prayed it was a boy!". She was so excited. Bethany (4) was in awe of the whole situation.

The amazing part of a home birth is that it is so relaxed. We sat around, held the baby, ate, talked. Some took cat naps. I don't think Brynna slept a wink until the next day.   It was a surreal event and I am so thankful for a daughter and son-in-law that wanted to share it with us.  I guess they never really asked...we were just there.  LOL!

A little guitar session!!

Ashley and Ivey...waiting.....

Hahahahahahh...thats all I have to say about that!

Ashley...aka photographer

A Grandpa waiting for his grandchild.

Beth and Carter...watching Star Wars and waiting....

Beth loves her brother!

My mom, GGKEE!

My dad, POPPI!

Ivey, Patty and Daddy Luke admiring the perfection!

Still Waiting...

No baby yet! We had a productive weekend though. We decided to get some things done before baby. Put some red highlights in Brynna's hair, cut Carter's hair, did my hair and dyed her CALIN BLUE GUAZE WRAP using the PROCION DYES FROM DHARMA. I capitalized because she had to tell me all these words and I have no idea what they are and what they mean. Whatever happened to a piece of fabric and some Ritz dye? Anywhoooo, it turned out green instead of blue, but since it was sort of a Lucille Ball attempt she can't be picky! I tried!!

This is NOT the new baby!!

Baby is coming!!

My daughter is due to have her 4th child any day now. I am getting pretty excited. She is doing amazing but very ready to hold this sweet baby. This pregnancy was definitely an answer to prayers for their family so that makes it even more precious! Her children 7, 5 and 3 are excited to say the least. She is a "real woman" hahaha..and has her babies at home without even a midwife. It does help that her husband is an EMT and her mother in law (across the street from them) is a nurse and father in law is an MD. And I, well, I like to think I am pretty savvy  in the medical world. After all, I have had cancer. I just know that she will want me there and need much of my wise advice. Who knows, maybe she will want me to deliver that baby. I doubt if I will do the episiotomy (do they even do that anymore?).  I am ready.....

As for me...just been working in my studio. I cleaned and organized the studio, although to outsiders you probably would not notice any difference. But I know...Everything has its place now!  My husband seems to think he can just walk in my studio when I am creating, but today I made sure he knows that he really needs to knock when leaving the house...into the garage (studio) and out the door.  How rude!! Good thing I married a patient man. He would love to park a car in there. Ain't gonna happen honey!

Weight loss journey update...lost 1/4 of an ounce after 2 weeks diet and excercise. Went out tonight for beer and mexican food, and lots of it! I checked into lap band surgery today. You have to meet an awful lot of requirements to be able to have  insurance pay for the procedure. Crap! My husband said he would knock my teeth out, but I told him that would never stop me! I will just have to carry on...

So between pinning, facebooking and eating, I am a busy girl. I will be checking in soon..hopefully with news of a new baby and a 30 lb. weight loss.  I can dream..

My Studio...Stu Stu Studio

Remember Sponjetta? She was on America's Got Talent? She sang this
 song....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4DUzFH245Zw   

My family makes fun of me, but this is my studio. Yes, some people call it a garage. My husband would like to call it a garage...but instead I insist he call it my studio. No one can touch the "stuff" in my studio except me. I realize I need to do a little (just a little) organizing, but there is a lot of good valuable stuff in here and I know where everything is. Everything has a purpose and a re-purpose!! 

So, if you need me...I'll be in my studio, studio!!

Just craftin!!

Just a craftin...  

 I bet my daughter is having a fit because this picture is slightly crooked.

My house is suffering.....

I have no life......

But other than that...it's all good ;)

http://www.etsy.com/shop/MidlifeRepurposed

Check out my Etsy shop!!  I am so excited about my creations!! I get to make new things every day and hopefully it will be something that someone just HAS to have!   I have listed some of my mom and sisters items in my shop until we have a website.  Here are a few photos of items I have listed.

Most of my items are re-purposed from "treasures"  I have found on the farm, at thrift stores or yard sales. They are not perfect, but made with LOVE <3....and paint....and nails....and glue...and ribbons.....and wire...and fabric ;)

Bad, bad blogger!!

I am pretty sure that I am not a good blogger. I think that good bloggers check in more than once a month. But to my defense I have been working on opening my Etsy shop, working on the Website, making new products for the shop, cleaning out all my old files in the farm office, getting ready for taxes...and a few more very very important things ;)

Easter buckets for the grandkids.....

These are a few of the items in my Etsy Shop...Stop in and see..Midlife Repurposed is the name. I opened yesterday and made my first sale today. Thats a good thing!!

Hello?

I have been looking for a chair like this. Didn't want to spend 200-300 dollars. Saw this at the Salvation Army Store...what? 50 bucks!! Yep, looks like brand new!! If it was yours...thanks :)

Getting back to work...

My Thermometer says -6 today. Great day to stay inside and work on some "projects". Hopefully I can throw in a few loads of laundry, vacuum and cook in between jobs. I look a fright these days...I have orange hair (due to some at home coloring), I have a nice case of dermatitis on my face that seems to be spreading (yes, I have been to the dermatologist for this ;) , I am fat (been dieting since Christmas and lost 2 freakin' pounds-not happy),  I am hungry, I wear sweats and a sweatshirt everyday, my socks all have holes in them, I have no desire to go out of my house and the worst part is I AM NOT DEPRESSED! My friends think I must be in a deep dark depression...nope. I am a sick woman! I told my husband yesterday that he is so lucky to be married to such a prize and he said "you're still perrtyy"! What a guy...his sick sense of humor compliments mine ;)                                 

I did make these confetti glass mugs that turned out really cute.

Silhoutte Cameo Cutter...HELP!!

Working with my Silhouette Cameo...I think I need some practice. Although the little circle on the bottom left looks a little like George Washington...don't you think?